Sigh.....

I had a weird flare up Friday. I had a dream that I was being hit, but the pain didn't feel like I was being punched. It was a searing pain. I woke up startled and felt the searing pain all over my body. It was debilitating. I couldn't make fists with my hands and my entire body was burning up, but I had ice cold pins and needles sensations in my hands and feet. It wasn't the most intense flare up, but it was definitely one of the scariest. With my scoliosis, I was terrified that I was feeling the beginning to become paralyzed. I have been having more back problems... stiffness and just overall pain. But, since I don't have medical here in the states, I haven't shared any of this with my mom.

It's frustrating to go from free health care, to not being able to see the doctor cause it will cost an arm and a leg. But, luckily, I found out that I am eligible for Medicaid and Disability... and... I have another hearing coming up for my worker's compensation case. I believe they are reexamining me to see if I need more disability from WC.

Sigh.... keep your fingers crossed that it won't take too long to get everything settled